I must be going mad

I am actually waiting... But for what? I must be going bonkers...

Put in the song just because it is really good, not because it reflects my mood.

Mental image

You're driving your yellow GTO with one hand. Your fantastic long legs are smoothly working the pedals. Your black boots are untied. The car is making this great throbbing sound.

It is a great image, it has been taking up a lot of my thinking time in these last two days. It definitely works for me. You stir up things in me I never even knew were there....

Music in my head

Sometimes you start humming and with me it somehow always ends up being this song... It is part of my soul and comes out when I'm relaxed enough to hum and dream.

The other song that somehow keeps haunting me is also a soundtrack song: my ain true love from the movie Cold Mountain. Reading that book at the moment btw, it is fantastic!

Things I detest: cleaned, finished and booted out!

Today was a good day! I got some nasty paperwork done at work which has been weighing on me heavily for the last two weeks. Done! While I was doing that I overheard a conversation about a co-worker whom I personally detest. He is an asshole and nasty with the students and well... an arrogant SOB. He will be leaving within three months! He felt he wasn't a good fit in the team... No surprise there for me, and I'm super glad he will be going, for me and the kids at school.

I had some great classes, uploaded all the grades of the talks my pupils have given. Then the sun was shining, had a nice chat with a new co-worker, and had a seriously good yoga class. After one flow I found myself exhaling in a content sigh. Yummy, yogi flow. Did some knitting, and now for some really nice sleep in my really nice new bed, all soft and shiny!

Evi Vine, I ♥

Kings of Leon

This song got stuck in my head on Couderc. Became sort of a summer anthem after that. It is raw and empowering, ...enticing...

Funny picture

I've been making hats for Maris like crazy. And if they are too big for me, they are perfect for her!

Made one out of Angora. Which is nice and soft but NASTY to work with! It gets everywhere.. yuck. Neverever again... I stick my tongue out to the nasty stuff:

Vulnerable

I'm feeling so vulnerable right now. You could rip me apart, tear me down and sweep me away.
I really like you and you know it. I don't know how you feel about me. Maybe I never will, guys are usually not so vocal about feelings. I know that, I accept that.
But it stills makes my tummy ache.

I'm in love, for the first time in a really long time. I found someone who is nice enough to fall in love with. That is so precious and it fills me with joy. I want to bury myself in him.

And like a proper adhd girl I blurted it out in an email. Now he knows. He knows I don't want him as a friend, I want more, as Maxi Jazz would put it. And I feel very, very vulnerable right now.

But it is also nice to feel so profoundly even if it is not always that comfortable. I'm feeling. I like it. He makes me feel alive.

Coolest video ever!

Trippy funny catchy

Keep looking it is way weird :)

Lost

127,3 - 81,9 = 45,4 kilo's lost

77,3 would mean 50 kilos lost..

Wind blows dusk sets in

Damn, 20.30 and it is getting dark! Yay for the change of seasons. Now we can burn loads of candles again and snuggle up under blankets; I love!

Tired,

MEH, I'm tired.

Woke up way early this morning so did not get a lot of sleep. And the first day of work is always tiresome. After listening to other people for about two hours my brain just gives up and goes into daydream modus. At one point I was laying on my table, almost asleep. Not the best impression to make on a first day maybe. Then I moved some stuff around that I would need to use when the kids come in tomorrow. Much better, days with kids.

But... everybody kept telling me I was looking good and lost more weight. Yes I did, thank you. It was really nice to see certain co workers again. I got hugged quite often today, mostly by the men who teach the technical stuff in our school. They all did the daddy hug thing and asking me if I was up to it while still holding me. It felt really good that these people really care about me!

I think I will eat fries and salad for dinner... I don't feel like cooking, lolz.

Sigh

You were slouched down on my couch, and I got a glimpse of those fantastic long legs of yours.
All I wanted to do in that moment was to straddle you, slowly take of your glasses, grip your head with both hands and then lean in to kiss you. But stopping right before our lips would meet,
forcing you to take the bait.

But I didn't.

That is why I was darting all over the place and talking totally incoherent. I knew that as soon as I would slow done, I would jump yours bones right there and then. But I'm not sure you want me that way... So I didn't dare.

But boy, you are giving me insomnia right now...

Sigh....

OMG cute!

Look at the cute gorgeous red panda drawing I found on the interwebs:

The artist is Emmy and this is here (ubergreat) blog: bittersweet enmi

Pretty berries and teeny pumpkins

I had a craft attack and made tiny felted jack o' lanterns, and then I went to the park for a stroll in the sun and feeding the deer (who are now calling out like bonkers as soon as they spot me with my baggie of goodies) and getting the pumpkins to have their picture taken.

So I took a photo of them:

And one of my fave tree who has the most pretty red berries at the moment. I wonder if there is a way that I can get my hair in such a color?

And now I'm gonna take a nap in the sun. Personally I think it is an excellent way to spend my last day of summer holiday. Bring on autumn! A adore autumn!

Love love

I love the message of this song:

Teach your hart to love and spread it! Well, the love, not your hart!

Yes I know, I may not have the most sophisticated taste, in anything for that matter. But I don't care, I like what I like, and thoroughly enjoy it.